Thursday, November 21, 2019

You, If No One Else

 by Tino Villanueva

        Listen, you
who transformed your anguish
into healthy awareness,
put your voice
where your memory is.
You who swallowed
the afternoon dust,
defend everything you understand
with words.
You, if no one else,
will condemn with your tongue
the erosion each disappointment brings.

You, who saw the images
of disgust growing,
will understand how time
devours the destitute;
you, who gave yourself
your own commandments,
know better than anyone
why you turned your back
on your town's toughest limits.

Don't hush,
don't throw away
the most persistent truth,
as our hard-headed brethren
sometimes do.
Remember well
what your life was like: cloudiness,
and slick mud
after a drizzle;
flimsy windows the wind
kept rattling
in winter, and that
unheated slab dwelling
where coldness crawled
up in your clothes.

Tell how you were able to come
to this point, to unbar
History's doors
to see your early years,
your people, the others.
Name the way
rebellion's calm spirit has served you,
and how you came
to unlearn the lessons
of that teacher,
your land's omnipotent defiler.

Sunday, September 8, 2019

The Pyromaniac And The Gas Station Girl

by Brent Cunningham


I met her on my way to burn the mall
and loved her instantly and with enthusiasm.
All night, I circled her booth, candles
blazing on the dashboard, cold brain soup
sloshing through my head. At dawn
I sailed in with both windows down,
the sun like a blind junkie, the tank
like a grotto. Fill me up, darling. I’m empty.
And, yes, it was that kind of love. Meat
and potatoes love. One afternoon, burning
the golf course, the thin bones in my forehead
opened, a slug of light, a hole
the size of a wedding band, the river
like black urine. I needed a clean
shirt, maybe some wingtips and a steady
job, but in a few months, BANGO,
we rented a flat by the fireworks factory
and started making babies. Now and then
I got the itch, burned down a Fotomat
or a Taco Bell, but mostly it was cake
and dumplings, me and my sweetie
strolling through the dinosaur museum,
orange blossoms for breakfast, jaybirds
for lunch. It's a funny thing
how you settle down, start hiding matches
and poison from the kids, spend your weekends
installing shower nozzles, but it happens.
And pretty soon you start thinking
like you're happy, like you never need
to burn another deli, like all those fires
were only lanterns on the path to this life,
this oak door, this stretch of lawn
where your daughters swing their mallets
and chase painted balls. One day, you are fifty
and your wife dresses in her old uniform
and brings you cocktails and shouts happy
birthday. But you wonder. You fork
cake down your throat and wonder
if you can still rub two sticks together,
if you’ve still got the old magic,
the old razzle dazzle. And that night,
for the first time in decades,
you dream that all of Texas is on fire.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

A Red Tricycle in the Belly of the Pool

the live oak over the nursery got a disease
they could only save one limb
it wasn’t surprising; it wasn’t that kind of nursery
 
a girl rode her red tricycle around the bottom of the pool
the pool had no water; it hadn’t rained
 
the girl kept smelling her hand
it smelled like honeywheat, or the inside of a girl’s panties
 
someone said, race you
she nodded okay and pedaled like hell
after three laps no one had passed her
 
she looked over her shoulder, lost her balance
ripped her hands & knees on the blue concrete
 
the one limb on the live oak curved like a question
would she need stitches again
 
there was already ink under her skin & iodine on her tongue
or was it the other way around
 
she could see black thread bunching
sewing centipedes under her skin
 
her throat burned and she couldn’t move her legs
it wasn’t a tricycle
it was something she couldn’t get her foot out from under
 
she hated to stop or lose her shoe and, I’m sorry
the pool was full of water

Sunday, April 28, 2019

To A Young Poet

TRANSLATED BY FADY JOUDAH

Don’t believe our outlines, forget them
and begin from your own words.
As if you are the first to write poetry
or the last poet.

If you read our work, let it not be an extension of our airs,
but to correct our errs
in the book of agony.

Don’t ask anyone: Who am I?
You know who your mother is.
As for your father, be your own.

Truth is white, write over it
with a crow’s ink.
Truth is black, write over it
with a mirage’s light.

If you want to duel with a falcon
soar with the falcon.

If you fall in love with a woman,
be the one, not she,
who desires his end.

Life is less alive than we think but we don’t think
of the matter too much lest we hurt emotions’ health.

If you ponder a rose for too long
you won’t budge in a storm.

You are like me, but my abyss is clear.
And you have roads whose secrets never end.
They descend and ascend, descend and ascend.

You might call the end of youth
the maturity of talent
or wisdom. No doubt, it is wisdom,
the wisdom of a cool non-lyric.

One thousand birds in the hand
don’t equal one bird that wears a tree.

A poem in a difficult time
is beautiful flowers in a cemetery.

Example is not easy to attain
so be yourself and other than yourself
behind the borders of echo.

Ardor has an expiration date with extended range.
So fill up with fervor for your heart’s sake,
follow it before you reach your path.

Don’t tell the beloved, you are I
and I am you, say
the opposite of that: we are two guests
of an excess, fugitive cloud.

Deviate, with all your might, deviate from the rule.

Don’t place two stars in one utterance
and place the marginal next to the essential
to complete the rising rapture.

Don’t believe the accuracy of our instructions.
Believe only the caravan’s trace.

A moral is as a bullet in its poet’s heart
a deadly wisdom.
Be strong as a bull when you’re angry
weak as an almond blossom
when you love, and nothing, nothing
when you serenade yourself in a closed room.

The road is long like an ancient poet’s night:
plains and hills, rivers and valleys.
Walk according to your dream’s measure: either a lily
follows you or the gallows.

Your tasks are not what worry me about you.
I worry about you from those who dance
over their children’s graves,
and from the hidden cameras
in the singers’ navels.

You won’t disappoint me,
if you distance yourself from others, and from me.
What doesn’t resemble me is more beautiful.

From now on, your only guardian is a neglected future.

Don’t think, when you melt in sorrow
like candle tears, of who will see you
or follow your intuition’s light.
Think of yourself: is this all of myself?

The poem is always incomplete, the butterflies make it whole.

No advice in love. It’s experience.
No advice in poetry. It’s talent.

And last but not least, Salaam.


Thursday, February 7, 2019

(2 Little Whos)

By E. E. Cummings

2 little whos

(he and she)
under are this
wonderful tree

smiling stand
(all realms of where
and when beyond)
now and here

(far from a grown
-up i&you-
ful world of known)
who and who

(2 little ams
and over them this
aflame with dreams
incredible is)

Progressive Health

We here at Progressive Health would like to thank you   
For being one of the generous few who've promised   
To bequeath your vital organs to whoever needs them.   

Now we'd like to give you the opportunity   
To step out far in front of the other donors   
By acting a little sooner than you expected,   

Tomorrow, to be precise, the day you're scheduled   
To come in for your yearly physical. Six patients   
Are waiting this very minute in intensive care   

Who will likely die before another liver   
And spleen and pairs of lungs and kidneys   
Match theirs as closely as yours do. Twenty years,   

Maybe more, are left you, granted, but the gain   
Of these patients might total more than a century.   
To you, of course, one year of your life means more   

Than six of theirs, but to no one else,   
No one as concerned with the general welfare   
As you've claimed to be. As for your poems— 

The few you may have it in you to finish— 
Even if we don't judge them by those you've written,   
Even if we assume you finally stage a breakthrough,   

It's doubtful they'll raise one Lazarus from a grave   
Metaphoric or literal. But your body is guaranteed   
To work six wonders. As for the gaps you'll leave   

As an aging bachelor in the life of friends,   
They'll close far sooner than the open wounds   
Soon to be left in the hearts of husbands and wives,   

Parents and children, by the death of the six   
Who now are failing. Just imagine how grateful   
They'll all be when they hear of your grand gesture.   

Summer and winter they'll visit your grave, in shifts,   
For as long as they live, and stoop to tend it,   
And leave it adorned with flowers or holly wreaths,   

While your friends, who are just as forgetful   
As you are, just as liable to be distracted,   
Will do no more than a makeshift job of upkeep.   

If the people you'll see tomorrow pacing the halls   
Of our crowded facility don't move you enough,   
They'll make you at least uneasy. No happy future   

Is likely in store for a man like you whose conscience   
Will ask him to certify every hour from now on   
Six times as full as it was before, your work   

Six times as strenuous, your walks in the woods   
Six times as restorative as anyone else's.   
Why be a drudge, staggering to the end of your life   

Under this crushing burden when, with a single word,   
You could be a god, one of the few gods   
Who, when called on, really listens?

First Poem For You

I like to touch your tattoos in complete
darkness, when I can’t see them. I’m sure of
where they are, know by heart the neat
lines of lightning pulsing just above
your nipple, can find, as if by instinct, the blue
swirls of water on your shoulder where a serpent
twists, facing a dragon. When I pull you

to me, taking you until we’re spent
and quiet on the sheets, I love to kiss
the pictures in your skin. They’ll last until
you’re seared to ashes; whatever persists
or turns to pain between us, they will still
be there. Such permanence is terrifying.
So I touch them in the dark; but touch them, trying.

A Locked House

As we drove back, crossing the hill,
The house still
Hidden in the trees, I always thought—
A fool’s fear—that it might have caught   
Fire, someone could have broken in.   
As if things must have been
Too good here. Still, we always found   
It locked tight, safe and sound.

I mentioned that, once, as a joke;   
No doubt we spoke
Of the absurdity
To fear some dour god’s jealousy   
Of our good fortune. From the farm   
Next door, our neighbors saw no harm   
Came to the things we cared for here.   
What did we have to fear?

Maybe I should have thought: all
Such things rot, fall—
Barns, houses, furniture.
We two are stronger than we were
Apart; we’ve grown
Together. Everything we own
Can burn; we know what counts—some such   
Idea. We said as much.

We’d watched friends driven to betray;   
Felt that love drained away
Some self they need.
We’d said love, like a growth, can feed   
On hate we turn in and disguise;
We warned ourselves. That you might despise   
Me—hate all we both loved best—
None of us ever guessed.

The house still stands, locked, as it stood   
Untouched a good
Two years after you went.
Some things passed in the settlement;   
Some things slipped away. Enough’s left   
That I come back sometimes. The theft   
And vandalism were our own.
Maybe we should have known.

Like A Child, Sleepless

by W.D. Snodgrass

The ‘possum under the owl’s claw,
The wet fawn huddled in the grass,
The soldier, hurt, in his lost trench
Clench the eyelid, clutch the breath
Till Scavengers, till coup de grace,
Death and the lurking terror pass.

Vice tight each muscle lest the pent
Tendon spasm, twitch; preserve
All rigor, silence, so the blood
Thuds slower, fainter through the vein
Till the chilled skin gives off no scent;
Drain all least current from the nerve.

Clamp the arm tight against the head
To hush that whisper in the nose,
The click if lips slip open. Cover
Over this face and form; disguise
Whose body’s lying on the bed,
Eyes that still stare too wide to close.

Wild Geese

by Mary Oliver


You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

Body of a Woman

by Pablo Neruda

Body of a woman, white hills, white thighs,
you look like a world, lying in surrender.
My rough peasant's body digs in you
and makes the son leap from the depth of the earth.

I was lone like a tunnel. The birds fled from me,
and nigh swamped me with its crushing invasion.
To survive myself I forged you like a weapon,
like an arrow in my bow, a stone in my sling.

But the hour of vengeance falls, and I love you.
Body of skin, of moss, of eager and firm milk.
Oh the goblets of the breast! Oh the eyes of absence!
Oh the roses of the pubis! Oh your voice, slow and sad!

Body of my woman, I will persist in your grace.
My thirst, my boundless desire, my shifting road!
Dark river-beds where the eternal thirst flows
and weariness follows, and the infinite ache.

Aubade

I know my leaving in the breakfast table mess.   
Bowl spills into bowl: milk and bran, bread crust   
crumbled. You push me back into bed.

More “honey” and “baby.”
Breath you tell my ear circles inside me,   
curls a damp wind and runs the circuit   
of my limbs. I interrogate the air,

smell Murphy’s Oil Soap, dog kibble.
No rose. No patchouli swelter. And your mouth—   
sesame, olive. The nudge of your tongue
behind my top teeth.

To entirely finish is water entering water.   
Which is the cup I take away?

More turning me. Less your arms reaching   
around my back. You ask my ear
where I have been and my body answers,   
all over kingdom come.

Lines Depicting Simple Happiness

The shine on her buckle took precedence in sun
Her shine, I should say, could take me anywhere
It feels right to be up this close in tight wind
It feels right to notice all the shiny things about you
About you there is nothing I wouldn’t want to know
With you nothing is simple yet nothing is simpler
About you many good things come into relation
I think of proofs and grammar, vowel sounds, like
A is for knee socks, E for panties
I is for buttondown, O the blouse you wear
U is for hair clip, and Y your tight skirt
The music picks up again, I am the man I hope to be
The bright air hangs freely near your newly cut hair
It is so easy now to see gravity at work in your face
Easy to understand time, that dark process
To accept it as a beautiful process, your face

remember noah


you have to understand
it was so hot
 
sand as far as the eye could see
sand in teeth
 
a sealess life
every step a sinking a scratch
 
every storm
more sand
 
no sweat when we danced
pure salt in our lovemaking
 
i tried to spit once
it came out like a whistle
 
my first period
curry powder
 
old wives
spoke of tears
 
we thought they were
senile
 
laughter was
our wettest thing
 
we prayed often
to no one
 
we believed
in music
 
dry palms clapping
dust on ankle bracelets
 
we threw tabla and daff
caught spirit and sagat
 
a blaring life
the wailing or caesarean births
 
widows' eyes
wept wind
 
even our tongues were
tanned
 
something sun-dried
in every recipe
 
rays
were babies' first words
 
you have to understand
we forgot how to be thirsty
 
mud by then
was primitive

splashing
the stuff of legend
 
only giddiness
quenched us
 
we were dizzy all the time
in the world all the time
 
then we heard him
grumbling to himself
 
something about forty
something about a flood
 
clad in sheep's wool
he reeked of wolf shit
 
something about monogamy
something about shelter
 
i thought:
this must be heatstroke
 
i thought:
the brain of a six-hundred-year-old
 
i thought:
he is a conceptual artist
 
the ark
an installation
 
his masterpiece
took years
 
took trees
got bigger
 
he was our favorite
dirty joke
 
beloved schizophrenic
neighbor
 
then he started preaching
then he kidnapped pigs
 
mosquitos
doves
 
things that wanted to eat each other
stuffed onto the same boat
 
we threw our heads back
we slapped ashy knees
 
we mooned him
threw hot stones
 
we streaked
whistled in his face
 
kicked the baking
ship
 
laughter was
our thunder thing
 
the lucky ones died
laughing
 
for centuries
he warned us
 
condescending motherfucker
foaming at the mouth
 
sweat dripping
from his beard
 
condensation
how did we miss it?
 
i have no words for the first drop
cooling the cheek
 
grandfathers raised their arms
lightning made the children leap
 
sizzle gave way to drizzle
humidity taught humility
 
we opened our mouths
swallowing everything
 
the clouds begat clouds
began to bite us back
 
panic soaked
our slouching spines
 
the instruments
drowned first
 
we played them sopping
out of tune
 
denial gave way
to rivers
 
i fell into a puddle
my very first shiver
 
the shock of cold water
made me orgasm
 
so all the times before
had been dry heave?
 
so this was mourning
this was mikveh?
 
the sky from blue
to za'atar hail
 
we choked
god's vomit filled our lungs
 
apologies bellyflopped
reaching went out of reach
 
we ran from high desert
to highest mountain
 
to whirlpool
or choral grief
 
if noah had keen merciful
he would have taught us how to swim
 
instead he saved
two mice
 
muttered prayers
shut the door
 
the best belly dancers
became mermaids
 
the dinosaurs learned
to fly
 
we never saw
a rainbow
 
our grave stones
coral reef