Thursday, February 7, 2019

(2 Little Whos)

By E. E. Cummings

2 little whos

(he and she)
under are this
wonderful tree

smiling stand
(all realms of where
and when beyond)
now and here

(far from a grown
-up i&you-
ful world of known)
who and who

(2 little ams
and over them this
aflame with dreams
incredible is)

Progressive Health

We here at Progressive Health would like to thank you   
For being one of the generous few who've promised   
To bequeath your vital organs to whoever needs them.   

Now we'd like to give you the opportunity   
To step out far in front of the other donors   
By acting a little sooner than you expected,   

Tomorrow, to be precise, the day you're scheduled   
To come in for your yearly physical. Six patients   
Are waiting this very minute in intensive care   

Who will likely die before another liver   
And spleen and pairs of lungs and kidneys   
Match theirs as closely as yours do. Twenty years,   

Maybe more, are left you, granted, but the gain   
Of these patients might total more than a century.   
To you, of course, one year of your life means more   

Than six of theirs, but to no one else,   
No one as concerned with the general welfare   
As you've claimed to be. As for your poems— 

The few you may have it in you to finish— 
Even if we don't judge them by those you've written,   
Even if we assume you finally stage a breakthrough,   

It's doubtful they'll raise one Lazarus from a grave   
Metaphoric or literal. But your body is guaranteed   
To work six wonders. As for the gaps you'll leave   

As an aging bachelor in the life of friends,   
They'll close far sooner than the open wounds   
Soon to be left in the hearts of husbands and wives,   

Parents and children, by the death of the six   
Who now are failing. Just imagine how grateful   
They'll all be when they hear of your grand gesture.   

Summer and winter they'll visit your grave, in shifts,   
For as long as they live, and stoop to tend it,   
And leave it adorned with flowers or holly wreaths,   

While your friends, who are just as forgetful   
As you are, just as liable to be distracted,   
Will do no more than a makeshift job of upkeep.   

If the people you'll see tomorrow pacing the halls   
Of our crowded facility don't move you enough,   
They'll make you at least uneasy. No happy future   

Is likely in store for a man like you whose conscience   
Will ask him to certify every hour from now on   
Six times as full as it was before, your work   

Six times as strenuous, your walks in the woods   
Six times as restorative as anyone else's.   
Why be a drudge, staggering to the end of your life   

Under this crushing burden when, with a single word,   
You could be a god, one of the few gods   
Who, when called on, really listens?

First Poem For You

I like to touch your tattoos in complete
darkness, when I can’t see them. I’m sure of
where they are, know by heart the neat
lines of lightning pulsing just above
your nipple, can find, as if by instinct, the blue
swirls of water on your shoulder where a serpent
twists, facing a dragon. When I pull you

to me, taking you until we’re spent
and quiet on the sheets, I love to kiss
the pictures in your skin. They’ll last until
you’re seared to ashes; whatever persists
or turns to pain between us, they will still
be there. Such permanence is terrifying.
So I touch them in the dark; but touch them, trying.

A Locked House

As we drove back, crossing the hill,
The house still
Hidden in the trees, I always thought—
A fool’s fear—that it might have caught   
Fire, someone could have broken in.   
As if things must have been
Too good here. Still, we always found   
It locked tight, safe and sound.

I mentioned that, once, as a joke;   
No doubt we spoke
Of the absurdity
To fear some dour god’s jealousy   
Of our good fortune. From the farm   
Next door, our neighbors saw no harm   
Came to the things we cared for here.   
What did we have to fear?

Maybe I should have thought: all
Such things rot, fall—
Barns, houses, furniture.
We two are stronger than we were
Apart; we’ve grown
Together. Everything we own
Can burn; we know what counts—some such   
Idea. We said as much.

We’d watched friends driven to betray;   
Felt that love drained away
Some self they need.
We’d said love, like a growth, can feed   
On hate we turn in and disguise;
We warned ourselves. That you might despise   
Me—hate all we both loved best—
None of us ever guessed.

The house still stands, locked, as it stood   
Untouched a good
Two years after you went.
Some things passed in the settlement;   
Some things slipped away. Enough’s left   
That I come back sometimes. The theft   
And vandalism were our own.
Maybe we should have known.

Like A Child, Sleepless

by W.D. Snodgrass

The ‘possum under the owl’s claw,
The wet fawn huddled in the grass,
The soldier, hurt, in his lost trench
Clench the eyelid, clutch the breath
Till Scavengers, till coup de grace,
Death and the lurking terror pass.

Vice tight each muscle lest the pent
Tendon spasm, twitch; preserve
All rigor, silence, so the blood
Thuds slower, fainter through the vein
Till the chilled skin gives off no scent;
Drain all least current from the nerve.

Clamp the arm tight against the head
To hush that whisper in the nose,
The click if lips slip open. Cover
Over this face and form; disguise
Whose body’s lying on the bed,
Eyes that still stare too wide to close.

Wild Geese

by Mary Oliver


You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

Body of a Woman

by Pablo Neruda

Body of a woman, white hills, white thighs,
you look like a world, lying in surrender.
My rough peasant's body digs in you
and makes the son leap from the depth of the earth.

I was lone like a tunnel. The birds fled from me,
and nigh swamped me with its crushing invasion.
To survive myself I forged you like a weapon,
like an arrow in my bow, a stone in my sling.

But the hour of vengeance falls, and I love you.
Body of skin, of moss, of eager and firm milk.
Oh the goblets of the breast! Oh the eyes of absence!
Oh the roses of the pubis! Oh your voice, slow and sad!

Body of my woman, I will persist in your grace.
My thirst, my boundless desire, my shifting road!
Dark river-beds where the eternal thirst flows
and weariness follows, and the infinite ache.

Aubade

I know my leaving in the breakfast table mess.   
Bowl spills into bowl: milk and bran, bread crust   
crumbled. You push me back into bed.

More “honey” and “baby.”
Breath you tell my ear circles inside me,   
curls a damp wind and runs the circuit   
of my limbs. I interrogate the air,

smell Murphy’s Oil Soap, dog kibble.
No rose. No patchouli swelter. And your mouth—   
sesame, olive. The nudge of your tongue
behind my top teeth.

To entirely finish is water entering water.   
Which is the cup I take away?

More turning me. Less your arms reaching   
around my back. You ask my ear
where I have been and my body answers,   
all over kingdom come.

Lines Depicting Simple Happiness

The shine on her buckle took precedence in sun
Her shine, I should say, could take me anywhere
It feels right to be up this close in tight wind
It feels right to notice all the shiny things about you
About you there is nothing I wouldn’t want to know
With you nothing is simple yet nothing is simpler
About you many good things come into relation
I think of proofs and grammar, vowel sounds, like
A is for knee socks, E for panties
I is for buttondown, O the blouse you wear
U is for hair clip, and Y your tight skirt
The music picks up again, I am the man I hope to be
The bright air hangs freely near your newly cut hair
It is so easy now to see gravity at work in your face
Easy to understand time, that dark process
To accept it as a beautiful process, your face

remember noah


you have to understand
it was so hot
 
sand as far as the eye could see
sand in teeth
 
a sealess life
every step a sinking a scratch
 
every storm
more sand
 
no sweat when we danced
pure salt in our lovemaking
 
i tried to spit once
it came out like a whistle
 
my first period
curry powder
 
old wives
spoke of tears
 
we thought they were
senile
 
laughter was
our wettest thing
 
we prayed often
to no one
 
we believed
in music
 
dry palms clapping
dust on ankle bracelets
 
we threw tabla and daff
caught spirit and sagat
 
a blaring life
the wailing or caesarean births
 
widows' eyes
wept wind
 
even our tongues were
tanned
 
something sun-dried
in every recipe
 
rays
were babies' first words
 
you have to understand
we forgot how to be thirsty
 
mud by then
was primitive

splashing
the stuff of legend
 
only giddiness
quenched us
 
we were dizzy all the time
in the world all the time
 
then we heard him
grumbling to himself
 
something about forty
something about a flood
 
clad in sheep's wool
he reeked of wolf shit
 
something about monogamy
something about shelter
 
i thought:
this must be heatstroke
 
i thought:
the brain of a six-hundred-year-old
 
i thought:
he is a conceptual artist
 
the ark
an installation
 
his masterpiece
took years
 
took trees
got bigger
 
he was our favorite
dirty joke
 
beloved schizophrenic
neighbor
 
then he started preaching
then he kidnapped pigs
 
mosquitos
doves
 
things that wanted to eat each other
stuffed onto the same boat
 
we threw our heads back
we slapped ashy knees
 
we mooned him
threw hot stones
 
we streaked
whistled in his face
 
kicked the baking
ship
 
laughter was
our thunder thing
 
the lucky ones died
laughing
 
for centuries
he warned us
 
condescending motherfucker
foaming at the mouth
 
sweat dripping
from his beard
 
condensation
how did we miss it?
 
i have no words for the first drop
cooling the cheek
 
grandfathers raised their arms
lightning made the children leap
 
sizzle gave way to drizzle
humidity taught humility
 
we opened our mouths
swallowing everything
 
the clouds begat clouds
began to bite us back
 
panic soaked
our slouching spines
 
the instruments
drowned first
 
we played them sopping
out of tune
 
denial gave way
to rivers
 
i fell into a puddle
my very first shiver
 
the shock of cold water
made me orgasm
 
so all the times before
had been dry heave?
 
so this was mourning
this was mikveh?
 
the sky from blue
to za'atar hail
 
we choked
god's vomit filled our lungs
 
apologies bellyflopped
reaching went out of reach
 
we ran from high desert
to highest mountain
 
to whirlpool
or choral grief
 
if noah had keen merciful
he would have taught us how to swim
 
instead he saved
two mice
 
muttered prayers
shut the door
 
the best belly dancers
became mermaids
 
the dinosaurs learned
to fly
 
we never saw
a rainbow
 
our grave stones
coral reef

The Suicide

didn't thank
didn't wave goodbye
didn't flutter the air with kisses
a mound of gifts unwrapped
bed unmade
no appetite

always elsewhere

though it was raining elsewhere
though strangers peopled the streets
though we at home slaved and
baked and wept and
hung ornaments
and perfumed the dark
did he marvel
did he thank

was he grateful        did he know
was he human
was he there

always elsewhere:
didn't thank
didn't kiss
toothbrush stiffened with unuse
puppy whining in the hall
car battery dead
sweaters unraveled

was that human?

Went where?

Sweetness

Just when it has seemed I couldn’t bear   
   one more friend   
waking with a tumor, one more maniac   

with a perfect reason, often a sweetness   
   has come   
and changed nothing in the world   

except the way I stumbled through it,   
   for a while lost   
in the ignorance of loving   

someone or something, the world shrunk   
   to mouth-size,   
hand-size, and never seeming small.   

I acknowledge there is no sweetness   
   that doesn’t leave a stain,   
no sweetness that’s ever sufficiently sweet ....   

Tonight a friend called to say his lover   
   was killed in a car   
he was driving. His voice was low   

and guttural, he repeated what he needed   
   to repeat, and I repeated   
the one or two words we have for such grief   

until we were speaking only in tones.   
   Often a sweetness comes   
as if on loan, stays just long enough   

to make sense of what it means to be alive,   
   then returns to its dark   
source. As for me, I don’t care   

where it’s been, or what bitter road   
   it’s traveled   
to come so far, to taste so good.

Broken Promises

Broken Promises

I have met them in dark alleys, limping and one-armed;   
I have seen them playing cards under a single light-bulb   
and tried to join in, but they refused me rudely,   
knowing I would only let them win.   
I have seen them in the foyers of theaters,   
coming back late from the interval   

long after the others have taken their seats,   
and in deserted shopping malls late at night,   
peering at things they can never buy,   
and I have found them wandering   
in a wood where I too have wandered.   

This morning I caught one;   
small and stupid, too slow to get away,   
it was only a promise I had made to myself once   
and then forgot, but it screamed and kicked at me   
and ran to join the others, who looked at me with reproach   
in their long, sad faces.
When I drew near them, they scurried away,   
even though they will sleep in my yard tonight.   
I hate them for their ingratitude,   
I who have kept countless promises,   
as dead now as Shakespeare’s children.   
“You bastards,” I scream,   
“you have to love me—I gave you life!”